Tuesday, January 22, 2013
I was fine last week. In fact, I was great last week so I don't understand this grumpy pants mood. My Mom, God love her, is just getting on my last nerve and I know all she's trying to do is help but when she says things like "you know it's 12:30 right?" while I'm in the shower getting ready for a 1:00 class I just want to scream "does it look like I have access to a watch right now?! NO I do not know it's 12:30 but I do know I have to be to class soon. Why the freak do you think I'm in the freaking shower?!" And then when she knows everything I did up until I left for school (which did not include eating because I did not give myself enough time to put something together, which is totally my fault and on me and I'm not mad at my mom because I didn't have food) and then I come back home right after class and she asks if I've eaten today I just want to scream and pull my hair out and be like "really?! you're asking me this question? Did you see me eat before I left?! NO! Therefore, no I have not eaten today!" Of course she defends her question by saying something like "well I don't know where you went after class; if you went out and got something." Like she doesn't trust me to stay on the right path without her hovering over me ALL the time! NO mom I did NOT eat out after class. I have a 1-2:15 class and a 2:30-5:20 class. I have no time to get food and I was home by 5:40; not enough time to stop by a fast food joint, eat the food, and hide the evidence - especially since it takes me forever to eat anything these days!
Gah! Some days I just can't stand it! I did fine on my own without her hovering over me like gnat. I know when my classes are and when I have to work. I know the consequences of not getting up in time to make food and I know how to remedy that situation as soon as possible in a healthy way. Why can she not just trust me for crying out loud?! And why does it bother me so much to the point where I almost feel the need to get violent with something?!
stay safe, stay happy, stay hopeful
borderline homicidal signing off